ugly .

what constitutes ugly?

If I had a penny for the amount of times Ive heard males calling females (including myself) 'butters' or 'ugly'...whether it be because she rejected him or hes just got spite in his heart...WHAT IS UGLY? This is something thats been playing in my mind for a while now...cos Ive seen females of all different walks of life, shapes & sizes being called 'ugly' and no-ones ever clarified shit up for me. I understand the literal meaning, it means unattractive...but what constitutes being unattractive? whos idea of unattractive? your idea of unattractive? because everyones unattractive is different. So how can you label someone as "ugly" without putting "in my opinion" or "i think" in front of it...because just because you think someone is ugly, it doesnt shove them into the world's 'ugly' box. Its only YOUR opinion.
And another thing,
Dont you realize by calling someone ugly out of embarassment, or just out of the plain and simple spite in your heart makes you look uglier than them? Small people try and make people smaller than them. You're not some sort of higher deity to be telling people what they are and what they aren't. If Im ugly, you're ugly, straight. DONT THROW STONES WHEN YOU LIVE IN A GLASS HOUSE BREDRIN.

Ive always been taught theres nothing more attractive than an attractive personality. Looks do count for something, come on now, but I cant see myself being involved with anyone if he was a complete bastard but he was the nicest thing ive ever clapped eyes on. Thats shallow. Fuck someone ugly inside. With the exception of surgery, people can only control what they look like to an extent. Its all genetic, but a personality can be modified, and thats within our control. Everyone can change inside, but only so much on the outside. Personally, it would cut me much deeper to be called a nasty person than unattractive.

ANYWAY thats my rant over I just got a bit tired of watching the same old shit happen to innocent people who have no control over what happens in the womb. Besitos

selfish people

i am SICK SICK SICK of helping people and getting nothing back.

I dont ask people for ANYTHING, cos I was always taught to only be dependent on myself. From a young age it was inscribed into my head that I would feel a deeper satisfaction doing stuff for MYSELF rather than being assisted. I dont like to rely on people. Yeah, some people get offended when I dont let them pay for me n that but thats just the sort of person I am. Anyone who knows me properly would know this.

BUT

when I NEED something done, that Im unable to do myself, what other choice do I have? I cant do it myself and someone close to me can, so why should I not seek help? I expected to be helped anyway, since Ive helped this individual out of certain predicaments. I needed something, they saw how much I needed it, yet they chose to be SELFISH. There was no reason for them not to do me this small favour...they werent busy or anything...they just didnt want to do it. The one time in YEARS when I ask for something off someone, much less someone Ive helped on numerous occasions, and they cant even deliver. SELFISH. I swear, I dont give to receive. I like to help people, no shit. But Im taking this as a lesson....When Im in NEED of something...Im not gonna possess certain traits that werent in me in the first place...like being reliant. Im just gonna carry on being independent and doing shit for myself without nobodys helping hand; however hard that may be. Because people dont know how to empathize and put themselves in MY position...ive always found that helps when Im being selfish...but I guess not everyone is able to do that. I swear...some people need to come down a few pegs cos theyre too up their own arses.

Ah well; shit happens.

Im finished now :)